As a writer, I've faced many critics: writing workshops with fellow classmates critiquing my work, opinionated professors, friends and family that disagree for one reason or another with my content or subject matter, etc. I also include myself in that list. I am my own worst critic. I judge, scrutinize, over analyze, undo, redo, rework and even trash my own stories and poems. Sometimes, a perfectly good piece is set ablaze and, like a Phoenix, comes back to life in a very familiar form.
The one thing I never do is apologize for my work. It is mine. I take ownership of it and never regret how or why it came to be. It is as it is and what it is because I made it that way. I'm proud of it and when I'm most proud of it, I often share it for others to enjoy. It is not meant to harm or offend anyone but it is also not for the weak of heart or mind and so I preface my blog by saying that my writing is a way for me to express myself the only way I know how. Be it offensive or demeaning or derogatory or deleterious to my health, wealth or happiness, it is my expression of my thoughts and musings and is often times a completely schizophrenic episode in which the voices in my head write the story for me and I am unaware of its source.
I live my life to the fullest every day in hopes that I will never regret anything that I do either to myself or to someone I care about and for those I don't care about, I am incapable of regretting anything that I say or do to them anyway simply because I don't care and I write using the same philosophy. So, beloved readers, take everything that I write with a grain of salt--or sugar if you prefer--and don't ever get hung up on the words; they are just words. I did not create them, I do not own them, and at times they are not my own. I merely use them to express myself and occasionally entertain you.
In the words of the infinitely wise author Ms. Gertrude Stein "An audience is always warming but it must never be necessary to your work." I cannot, nor do I love you all but I hope that you can all appreciate and maybe even love reading my work almost as much as I love creating it.
Thank you ~Chianne
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