That One Mood...You Know the One

Sometimes this wave of emotion takes over me and stops me in my tracks; I can't move. I am breathless and still sometimes for several moments. In this frozen state, I am acutely aware of the fact that I am lonely; not lonely as in alone but lonely in the sense that I am not with you. I'd rather be with you. I want and need to be with you and I don't want to live without you.

Often times, my eyes well up with tears at the thought that I can't be with you and I am doomed to live my life alone because I don't want to be with anyone else. I must learn to live in your absence and breathe through these moments and suffer with the memories of you...and us...and love...but it's hard.