Killing Time

Can't remember if I showered today

but I do recall making love to you in

the shower, going down on you in the tub,

feeling clean and yet so dirty

with every lick and every rub

Can't remember if I ate today

but I do recall eating dinner at

our favorite place, drinking wine and

leaving early and your sweet kisses every place

Can't remember if I slept today

but I do recall sleeping with you

in your bed, on your couch, or any place

you'd lay your head

Can't remember if I lived today

but I recall living every moment

in your shadow, carrying on like you

were mine, thinking I was oh so lucky

guess that you were killing time

Death Wish

Wake me when the pain is gone
when I cannot feel, or breathe, or stand
when life can be lived from the comfort
and solitude of my mind and...
I am alone

Alone with myself in the confines of this worthless body
that, although it may be appealing to others, is a shell
of which I'd gladly rid myself and continue on as a naked soul
among the dead

The dead don't judge, can't judge
have neither voice nor sight with which to judge
and therefore I am safe to be nude, to be careless
to be free

Freedom, true freedom, I am convinced, comes only in death
so that, dear friends is where I'd like to exist
Uninhibited, unabashed, indisputably and
unmistakeably me